January 2012
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December 2011
1 post
If it takes me an entire lifetime to prove that...
November 2011
6 posts
52hearts:
you were a language i was constantly yearning to learn but could never quite catch on, with beautiful sounding words that meant things i could never really understand. you were all of that to me, a series of complicated phrases with apostrophes and accents in places that didn’t seem to fit inside my mouth, didn’t easily roll off my tongue the way i wanted it to, the way i wanted your...
Nathan,
I hope you realize how beautiful you are, inside and out. Never let anyone tell you any different. You don’t deserve anything but the best, which is exactly what I’m trying to give you. I think I’m doing a good job so far, so you say, and I’m never planning on stopping. Sitting here alone, in your room, waiting for you to get home from work, makes me way too happy....
Honestly, when I take a step back and think about it, there really aren’t many times during the day where I catch myself thinking about anything other than you.
I think you're the first one yet to make me feel...
It’s absolutely no secret that I’m falling for you; I’ve been falling for you. I know I tell you this (almost daily), and I hope you do believe me, but it’s the people that I’m around frequently that see it the most. My friend’s started referring to you as “Nate’s girl” before I even did, but it was never an unwelcome phrase. I always loved the...
It’s been almost a year since her, and after promising myself that nobody would take that spot for a long time, here you are. I’ve missed this feeling even more than I realized; the feeling of being cared for in return. It came without warning, quicker than I could have ever controlled, but I guess that’s what it means to truly fall for someone. I promise myself now, even if you...
October 2011
13 posts
I could definitely get used to my girlfriend...
Boyfriend.
I can finally call you that and be more than happy about it. Thank you for everything, you are absolutely amazing to me and treat me like I’ve never been treated. You really do mean the world to me. I like you.
Girlfriend.
I kind of really like you.
Love, you know.
You're the first thing I've ever come across that...
She locks all the doors and turns, says, "We will...
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I wish I was half as good at keeping people around...
Early fall brings with it so many memories; that kind you wish you could forget, yet cherish all the same. It’s miserable to feel like the only one that remembers just how beautiful we were then.
This past year has been nothing short of a mess without you.
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This loneliness feels all too familiar. This alcohol tastes all too familiar. This night seems all too familiar.
After all this time how could you still not care enough to even make an attempt to fix this?
September 2011
8 posts
It’s almost been a year now, and I’d certainly be lying if I was to say I don’t still think about you from time to time. The good news though: I’m finally beyond the point of missing you, which I must admit I’m fairly proud of myself for.
Though every once in a while, something hits me, and my mind kicks back 52 weeks. You might still be in denial of it, but we had...
I’ve never been the type to hold back feelings. If you want to know what’s on my mind, all you have to do is ask. The key though, is that you have to be worthy of knowing.
The most terrifying part of this? I already see...
“I have tried so hard to do right.”
– last words of president Grover Cleveland
I dream about you, on almost a nightly basis now. It’s a disappointment to wake up from that; To open my eyes and know instantly, without even rolling over, that you’re not there like I had hoped. It’s just silence. Silence, loneliness, and alcohol, at least until the next morning where the cycle repeats itself.
I have faith though, that someday I’ll wake up, and you will...
I’m done chasing people that want to leave. If you choose to walk away like I’m not fucking worth it, that’s on you. I just can’t justify you against my well being after something like that.
I want nothing more than to be enough.
August 2011
6 posts
Just you and me and the deep blue sea.
I drink every night to forget. What I'm missing is...
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It sucks, but I completely understand if I'm not...
July 2011
6 posts
It sucked more than I ever expected it to, to see you for the first time in all these months. I knew it would happen eventually, I mean it was only a matter of time due to the fact that we live 5 minutes apart. When I really think about it, I’m surprised it even took this long to happen.
You were with some boy that I didn’t know, and I honestly hope he treats you well and you’re...
It's amazing how easily other people can make us...
Deep breaths, over and over. I walked up with every intention of talking to you, and for one of the first few times in my life, my mind went absolutely blank. It’s like you caught me completely off guard, even though I knew exactly what I was getting myself into.
I stood there and looked at the ground, and my grandpa’s words were the only thing I could think of: “Remember Nate,...
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Going away never fails to makes me appreciate...
June 2011
12 posts
So far from home now But you are my lighthouse And just know those stars that you see Well that you see, they are looking right back at me
It's a sad process, but when you start losing...
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It still doesn't feel real, you know? It's like...
I feel like I’m not taking this as hard as I should. I think it’s because I’ve dealt with loss before at such a young age. As fucked up as it seems, the bottom line is I’m just used to people leaving. I hate that though. I hate that I can’t open up to people really. I hate when everyone around me is mourning and I can sit there and not shed a single fucking tear,...
I often hate the person that you made me.
Just make sure you walk away from me knowing...
I really wish I had it in me to tell you to fuck...